Posted on November 26, 2016
Lynny’s really crazy now… anyone that didn’t think it before, is now lol…
I’m really getting into this video’ing myself talking thing. This morning I went down to the shop on the mobility scooter, and took the video with me, to talk about something that’s bothering me…

Now the camera if very little, about half the size of a packet of ciggies, so I just hold it in my hand, while steering the scooter, so now anyone that see’s me, looks like I’m talking to myself (which of course I am) most of the time I’m looking about, but I also seem to have a fascination with looking at the palm of my hand. lol…
On the way down, I saw a guy I haven’t seen for months, who also talks to some I can’t see, he doesn’t generally have much to say to me, just asks fr a ciggy butt and that’s about all… anyway I saw him sitting at the park, and gave him a smile and continues talking to myself, on the way back, of course I was still talking, and I noticed me was very interested watching me coming road, when I got close, he asked for a butt, which I didn’t have, but he asked me to stop, I did, and as he was picking up his stuff to come over, I turned the camera off and put it in my pocket. I didn’t want in invade his privacy… or explain what I was doing.

Anyway, he said to me, “I didn’t know you talked to them too”
I couldn’t see the point in saying what I was doing, making him feel different, so I just went along with letting him think I was talking someone he couldn’t see.
He ended up talking for about 15 or 20 minutes about how he had people following behind him talking and being mean, saying horrible stuff,(my words not his) he asked me if I could see them, and I said no, but I thought they liked to stay invisible to others, he then agreed that he couldn’t see them when anyone was around, so it was in fact the question was a test for me… I passed ?

Now although I can talk the leg off an iron pot if I want, I also find with someone I don’t know well or just sometimes I can see people need to talk, so I get them talking about themselves, just making short often 2 or 3 word comment, or paraphrase to show I’m listening, and get them talking again, about what they say, and the only other input I have is asking different open questions.

Anyway, I really wish the camera was going for this conversation, not so I could share it with anyone, but just so I could listen to it a few times, because what he was saying was so darn interesting about the people behind him, then he just started talking generally, and he is quite intelligent, and although some of what he said were probably flights of fancy, other stuff like talking about having and feeding chooks and their living conditions, or the study he had done, were all made sense and was correct and interesting. Then when he started talking about how he couldn’t talk to me before, because of what sounds to me like anxiety, and how he knew I was a nice friendly person, and how wrong he was, thinking I wouldn’t be interested in talking, even if he could say more than he did before he started breathing to fast and sweating.

My point is, that for someone who usually only says 5 or 6 words max to me and then gets anxious and has to leave, and that has been the same for 18 months or so I have known him.

Once he thought I did what he did, and understood him, he suddenly became very friendly, and talkative. we probably would have still been talking now, if the rain hadn’t started, and he suggested I should get home, since I was coughing…
I’m so pleased I had that camera today, otherwise that wouldn’t have happened… and that would be a shame. I look forward to seeing him another day, and continuing our conversation.